Eternal-Other

everyday that passed, i wondered if this was going to work out. i didnt realize that she would be right. that even if it didnt work out with him, i would still benefit from it. she was so sure that he would hurt me. she's wrong - i ended up hurting him. these things im feeling, i feel as much pain as he feels. this entire experience is something i didnt expect. but i dont regret it. because he's the only one who has ever shown me how to live. i owe you both of you. memories of you haunt me in my sleep.everytime i close my eyes i see your face.when im in pain, all i think about is how much i hurt you.when i think about how scared i am, all i

[19.oct.08] Sunday 12:40am hidden it's october. it's been almost five months since that day. that dreadful, heart-shattering, unexpected day. the day that i experienced having that mind-blowing happiness and any other feeling torn away from me with a simple glance. or in his case, a sentence. before this past may, i thought i knew what it was like to feel for someone, to truly care for someone. i thought i knew what it was like to want to give up my life for someone, but i was wrong. i thought i knew what i wanted. who i wanted. i thought i knew what was best for me. i thought what it was like to live. i was most definitely wrong. and

[19.oct.08]Sunday 6:31am ’normal’ do you know what it's like to have something so sacred torn away from you? to blind, unaware of what you have until it's taken away. do you know what it's like to not be able to find any reason to live when you wake up? do you know what it feels like to try to act 'normal' around all those who are in your life, just so they dont suspect something is wrong. but what the f*** is normal? is it a simple touch? a faint whisper? an embrace that promises comfort? a smile that sends chills down your spine? or perhaps it's just knowing that you have someone in your life that will fdo as much for you as